insomnia

due to the pressure from the transfer affairs, it takes quite a long time to fall asleep after i go to bed. every time when im lying in bed i feel so tired of my body but remain spirital stimulated. i've tried music as my sleeping pill but it does not work at all. the worst situation occoured last night. i didnt go to bed until 1 am, when i lied in bed i felt more and more excited for no particular reason. i remember i read through a book and it says it is probably better to get up and do something else if u cant fall asleep. just as it said i jumped up and switched on computer again, hanging around on the net, glanced over various car forums and, i wrote two emails to my sweet 'cause i thought a lot at that moment, i poured my feeling to her and very rarely she replied the next day, that is today. that's really cheering 'cause i never ever prospect to receive her feedback in such short period of time.


see it's 1:04 again but im still mentally stimulated. i chatted with my mum just now. i think she ws trying to explain something to me in a very mild and roundabout way. since i told her i wanna transfer to melbourne she asks me every now and then whether i have idea to go back to china and re-plan my life. it seems to be quite strange. and she told me she wanna perchase a office somewhere in the city center and showed me budget. she never ever had a conversation with me about things like like before i came here. hence, i figure that if some elements about wealth go wrong in my family or they just wanna me stay right there beside them. according to mum's words, i could feel her care about me and she wanna be back home as soon as possible.