should be there last night

i should type last night, however i was so exhausted and forgot about it. when i opened my eye this few minutes ago i felt i've missed something. my head shouted: blog blog. then i grasped my lap top to my bed and prepared to finish what ought be finished last night.


as a respond to my aunt who's ear is suffering water invasion, i went to a local pharmacy for two magic ear treatment, called ear solution. i used to suffer water in ear and thanks to ear solution, my ear got totally fine in a very short period of time. then i went to dhl located next to the air port to mail them back to china. after i told the work staff that all i wanna post are just two boxes of medicine, they all weared a superising face and seemed to be questioning: dont you have this kind of treatment in your country? "get fucked", that was exactly what i wanna say at that moment. i figure that nearly all the equipment in that office are made in china and im 100% sure all the work suit they're wearing in are made in china. it is obvious to have those idiot thought we havent got treatment like that. forgot it, i never give a shit about what aussie idiot talking about. on my way home, one of the dhl staff phoned me that i have leaved to forgetten my credit card on their desk. jesus christ! i had to jump off bus half way. question was, i got off at where seems to be familiar with a high way, no pedestrain path at all. then i had to walk back along motor ways. thus i became the focus along the whole road. every one who rided pass me would give me a glance and might think: what the hell is that asian idiot doing?? that was really a embarrassing situation.


finally, i got my credit card and back to city. i nerved myself to go to richael's office and have a conversation with her. i asked her about my transfer affiar as gentle as possible even though i wanna her get fucked inside at that moment. anyway, that bitch gave me a clear and clean respond. so i may have to wait for another couple of weeks

insomnia

due to the pressure from the transfer affairs, it takes quite a long time to fall asleep after i go to bed. every time when im lying in bed i feel so tired of my body but remain spirital stimulated. i've tried music as my sleeping pill but it does not work at all. the worst situation occoured last night. i didnt go to bed until 1 am, when i lied in bed i felt more and more excited for no particular reason. i remember i read through a book and it says it is probably better to get up and do something else if u cant fall asleep. just as it said i jumped up and switched on computer again, hanging around on the net, glanced over various car forums and, i wrote two emails to my sweet 'cause i thought a lot at that moment, i poured my feeling to her and very rarely she replied the next day, that is today. that's really cheering 'cause i never ever prospect to receive her feedback in such short period of time.


see it's 1:04 again but im still mentally stimulated. i chatted with my mum just now. i think she ws trying to explain something to me in a very mild and roundabout way. since i told her i wanna transfer to melbourne she asks me every now and then whether i have idea to go back to china and re-plan my life. it seems to be quite strange. and she told me she wanna perchase a office somewhere in the city center and showed me budget. she never ever had a conversation with me about things like like before i came here. hence, i figure that if some elements about wealth go wrong in my family or they just wanna me stay right there beside them. according to mum's words, i could feel her care about me and she wanna be back home as soon as possible.

born after bazu

again, i went to adelaide city zoo with tian last weekend. i'd been there last year. everything remains the same. fortunately i saw the couple giant tortoises this time, really huge and weights nearly twice as me. proudly, giant panda habitat is under constructing and will be available in late 2009, then south australia government will import two giant pandas from china. i predict most sa red neck never saw a real giant panda in their whole life, so it'll be overwhelming.


gary told me everything has been done except the feed back from bradford. he said i could go dircetly to melbourne once i received the feed back. i think he just tried to comfort me anyway, as far as i see i may have to stay here for another couple of weeks. who knows. due to this embarassing situation, i live like a pig these days. lie-in till mid-day and have brech, then have nothing to do apart from waiting dinner time. see, this is my life at the moment. jesus christ.

frustrated

new semister is just few hours away but im still don't know what im gonna do in the next week. manager declared that there gonna have two exits for students who fail to pass the exam. no1: pack your bags and go home. no2: pay another 8000 bucks and do the bridging again. how about me? truth is i failed to pass and i wont re-do the bridging and wont pack my bag either. i applied release before the exam, problem is bradford didnt want to free me at that time, so i tried withdraw directly from bradford. hopefully i will receive their response in the coming couple of days. see, probably im gonna fucking around for the next fews days.


i met a pretty, female falungong missionary yesterday when i was eatting underground at the food court in myer. she tried to disseminate all kinds of positive things related to falungong and poured out lots of evil conducts done by ccp. it's obvious that she's trying to induce me to be their fellow, im not that easy to be fooled anyway. then in roundle mall after lunch i met a propaganda about the shenyun art performance. it was my first time to get so close to this event. i did know that before i came to australia but i didnt have closer involve than just through internet. according to various feedbacks, i predict shenyun art performance wont disappoint me so im thinking about perchasing a ticket.


i had a short conversation with my sweet this afternoon. though it finished in very short period of time i still felt warm and comfortable. i miss my sweet all day long, i just cant drive her away from my heart. i told her that im struggling these days and a little bit frustrated 'cause i wanna do something real to prove myself very much but the current situation doesnt allow me to do anything expecpt spending money and fucking around. i think im just killing time. i've realised about it but i can do nothing. nothing's gonna worse than this. she conforted me and told me to change my view. it probably be better if i consider nowadays as a day-off when i can do nothing to it but to accept the truth. yeah maybe. i have no choice after all.